A Broken Vow - A Poem by N. Daniel
Updated: Jan 21
A Broken Vow
Over 7 years of Buddhism. 7 years with no meat. I can't say those years have been kind to me.
I learned what it felt like to be a minority. I learned compassion, bravery, resilience, fortitude, humbleness and respect for my fellow man.
I learned what it was like to be a man who has never held a weapon standing against those who have.
I learned that a mind can be broken but never destroyed. I learned that a heart can be pierced but never to its core.
Shouldering the suffering of so many through my volunteerism and caregiving, I have come to understand what it means to shield others from desperation, helplessness and vulnerability.
Through my own inner battles, the war within myself, I have also learned what it means to be engulfed in such fear.
My spirit became fragile, my body became weak, my mind nearly lost itself, yet I endured.
It is with a heavy heart that I unburden myself with the weight of the world and return to my roots, and it is for my own health that I rescind the vow I made so long ago to never harm an animal.
I now know peace with God, with family. It feels as though I am home once more after a bitter war
where I knew many defeats, many tragedies, where I met people from all walks of life and made my best attempts to aid them.
The love I feel is a small consolation for the price I have paid, yet it fills me as never before. Thank you for being a part of my life.
I love you all.
- January 16, 2020 -